.friends.

I must say I am the luckiest girl in the world when it comes to friends.
Yea I've had problems with 'friends' before but I've come to realize they weren't my TRUE friends.
It doesn't matter how often you all talk-all that matters is that you know and they know that no matter what they will have your back and you will have theirs. I am blessed to have the good friends that I do have and I love them all tremendously.
I'm not gonna lie either my friends are about to be doing big things in the world..and I cannot wait to see all the success that is about to happen to them. It is so exciting and whats even more exciting is the fact that I am able to say.."Thats my friend!"..LOL!
We all doing wonderful things and its just amazing to see how much we have all grown...but yet when we get together it is like nothing has changed...
*sigh* what a wonderful feeling that is...

***SHOUT OUTZ***
-Alexis
-Jerlicia
-Shawndra
-Kamilah
-Amelia
-DBrad
-Nesha
-Courtney
-Lucius
-Nick
-Matt
-Dani B.
-Monique

I love ya'll to death and thats real talk!
xoxo
♥mercie™

jus some food for thought...

i saw this on a friend of mine's pg on facebook and i thought it was quite interesting..
i think he called it the irony's of love...check it out..

"Loving the right person at the wrong time... having the wrong person when the time is right... and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. Sometimes you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you... you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, letting go is one way of expressing how much they love a person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love... Love is always present... It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body, but it beats on the left... Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Let go when you're hurting too much... Give up when love just ISN'T enough... And move on when things are not like before. It's certain... there IS someone out there WHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE..."

soo tru
♥mercie™

the weather

since sunday it has been sooo gloomy in hampton...
no sun..no warmth..jus cold, wet drizzly, overcast...
today the sun finally came back out and it just made me feel like a brand new person...

I'm no longer upset about my past situation with the guy..
I saw him today..flashed him a smile, gave him a hug made small talk and kept it moving..
no animosity over here((anymore..lol))..
the weather just gave me a whole new perspective...
even tho life gets gloomy the sun does come out again...
and thats one thing that is constant in this crazy world we live in...

there is no reason for me to remain upset at that guy...
he made the choices he made and yea it was kinda messed up but that will be on his heart not mine...because I kno that I did the best I could...
friends? sure why not? what happened is in the past..no reason to dwell on it..ive learned a lesson from it..now its time to move on..
would i give him another chance..maybe..he would have to come with his A++++ game..lol..he would have to let me know that history would not repeat itself...and if he could successfully do that..then sure why not..

everything happens for a reason...
I no longer question why me because I kno that God has something GREAT in store for me..
so I will continue to charge it to the game and keep it moving..((i just hope my card doesn't max out..lol))

♥mercie™

stare

his body?
no.
his lips?
no.
his swag?
no.
his eyes?
yes.
the way he looks at me?
hell yes.
its something about the way he stares at me that drives me crazy.
it doesn't matter if im in his face or far away...
when our eyes meet..or rather his eyes meet mine...mmmmm
they pierce my soul.
they speak to me.
they say things words never could.
damn.

♥mercie™

man of my dreams...♥

when i see him my heart smiles....
when he stares at me my heart melts....
when he touches me my heart skips beats....
when he kisses me my knees go weak....
he has a crazy effect on me
whenever i see him i think of we...
how WE could be the ones they love to hate..
how WE could be perfect soulmates
but i dont wanna rush this too fast
cuz somethin like this i want to last
the feelings i feel r kinda unreal
i hope that this shit is the real deal
i smile so much when were together
that time is something i treasure
staring into his brown eyes
everything jus feels so right...
so every night i cant wait to go to sleep
because this is the man of my dreams..

♥mercie™

txt msg

"i'm not tryin to game u when i say this but u have the most gorgeous smile i have ever seen in my life its like one of those smiles u want to wake up to for the next 100 years and u dont want to go to sleep cuz stayin up lookin at it is way better than any dream u could ever possibly have at anytime in ur life."

:D

whenever i feel down i just read this txt and it brightens up my entire day....
this could be game even tho he says its not but i dont care cuz this is by far one of the sweetest things i have ever heard ((read..lol)) in my life....
*sigh*

.trust.

he said.."trust me..i'd never do that to you."
and i'll be damned if that nigga aint turn around and do what he said he'd NEVER do...

he said.."trust me..i'd never do that to you."
i said.."ha"
he said.."y u laugh? u dont believe me?"
i said.."no..y should i? last guy that said that to me did what he said he'd never do..so what makes you so different?"
he said.."cuz i'm not him"
i said.."he said the same thing too when i asked him in the beginning why i should trust him.."
he said.."baby, you just gotta believe me.."

...well if u cant tell i have MAJOR trust issues. its not something that i'm thrilled about...but i have to have them because ive been lied to so much and i have had my trust betrayed so many times. what makes this guy so different from all the others?
he says its because he genuinely cares about me and would never do anything intentional to hurt me or betray my trust....
but how do i know he's not lying to me??
i don't. i just have to 'trust' him right??
ha.

my roommate says that i just need to let it go and just let love happen...i wish it was that easy...
how do i kno that this time around love will happen for me...i dont..and i hate not knowing...
i can't take another heartbreak...i say fuck love because love has fucked me...so how can i trust something that has let me down time and time again???

i cant.

i want to let go and just let it happen but i dont know how...i dont want to get invested to only end up back at square one like i have so many times before...
i want this one to be different..i think he is..my friends all agree that he is...i want to believe that he is different but then again i don't..i cant get hurt if i dont expect anything from him...except for him to fuck up...

thats not a good way to think tho...
ugh..this shit is wayyyy to complicated for me...lol