Sunday, February 10, 2008

is it me?

This is a question I often ask myself...

"is it me?"


At this point, I honestly don't know what else it could be.
I've had one failed relationship after another...my mom says you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince..but DAMN! how many do I have to kiss????

This shit is getting old.

I thought maybe at first it was the type of guys I was attracted too, but when I thought about it, none of the guys I have dated have been the same. I don't really have a type, I know what I want in a guy and when I meet someone who has it thats who I give a chance.

And it seems like everytime the do me dirty they find someone else and their relationship works perfectly...makes me feel like I wasn't good enough for them to actual give a damn about.
Ironically, they always come back and tell me how sorry they are for fucking up with me and how they want another chance and all that bullshit. ARE YOU SERIOUS???

What is it about me that makes guys not want to act right?
I think I'm a good girl...I'm in school, I know what I want out of life, I'm pretty cool to hang out with, I can cook, I don't give the goods to any and every nigga thats want them ((im very very selective))..hell I've been told I'm wifey material...so what the hell is the problem???

it has to be me...


because at this point...after been done dirty by..hmmm lets see...((pause for counting..lol))seven guys....I don't know what else to think.

With that said, I'm taking a break from the male species ((no homo))
I'm just going to concentrate on school and enjoying life as much as I can.

"the best love is love for self"

and thats all I need....

Beyonce said it best:
"me, myself and I that's all I got in the end"

♥mercie™

3 comments:

crazybeautiful said...

so you took the words out of my head... man, i dont know what it is. i was out eating dinner with yet another Hello,Hi (check the blog) and he asked me what my type was. i said i dont have a type because when i did, it was like repeating loser after loser. i dont get the shit either merc. its like, hey, im attractive, i clean AND i cook, i read, im not some dumb bimbo..... wait, that might be it! can't tell you how many Aint Shit niggas step to me only to get smacked in the face with reality. even though i know i'm a prettyy good catch, i just cant help but to second think it, u know. thats when we resort to FrogKissing. i mean, where is the praise and appreciation for the Good Girls? now im not saying i'm perfect but i know im not the worst.it gets lonely around here. then we start to settle. but i dont want to settle anymore. maybe i'll just get a pet. maybe a frog ;)
crazybeautiful

Milah.b said...

its not you.
its not you in the least
there is a time for everything.

all these men*ahem* boys that youve been encounter with aren't up to par

a woman of your stature needs A MAN.
...dont loose hope.

your knight is on his horse right now...

Anonymous said...

awww thanks kam...=]

and kandace girl! im glad to see we on the same page! it makes me feel better to see that im not alone...